Well what can I say, life is uncertain, I am not in control of certain things. These are all realities that have been shoved in my face and I am doing my best to deal with them. But I find myself in a pattern of highs and lows.
Just three months ago life had an amazing vibe and promise to it, I had moved back to my favorite city, had a girlfriend that I thought our love was true and real (and had some flaws), was reuniting with friends and family. My girlfriend of 3.5 years was living in a 3rd world country for 5 months (refugee camp), meanwhile I was traveling the world for two months. Two months ago she did a 180 on me for a variety of reason (in the beginning of the three months she was madly in love and missing me, and by the end was so distant). This was her first relationship and I was her first lover, and so she has no one to compare to and I get that perspective but I am still confused as to what happened over there, she said reasons, but the initial distancing doesn’t make a lot of sense. I had been very supportive of this dream of hers, and was there when she needed me. Then when I needed her, she turned her back on me and said she couldn’t be there for me. I deserve better, someone that is passionate, loyal, and won’t get week at the knees when there are hot and good men and we are apart. Ce la vie.
So these are the cards that I have been dealt, what do you do with them. Thus my blogging journey begins.