We just skyped and she is deciding soon about her path to follow. Here is the scenario: She is in 3rd world country, doing her dream work. She has been offered a job there, and she needs to figure out if she wants it. I told her that if this is her dream that I didn’t want to get in the way. And have tried to encourage her to make this decision on her own. But she is still figuring it out after all this time. Part of me is like I deserve better than this.
It is so F-ing hard right now, because I can’t be there in person and the best we have is skype. I know if i was there, things would be totally different, but I am not and the cards are as they are. She loves me, she was crying more than half of the skype session. And says the only reason she would come back is for me (even though she has friends and family that she loves here). So the question remains, and I feel like I need to do something now or I will regret it the rest of my life. She is the love of my life, i had many girlfriends and dated and she is closest I have been to the bullseye.